Thursday, August 30, 2007

Fat Man Basking

Today while I was driving back to ElGargantian for the second time I noticed a very fat man wearing a bright blue tshrit streached luxuriously in the sun on the side of the road. His moped was lying at a slightly skewed angle a few meters away from him as the traffic rolled by. It was a very odd place to be basking... and a very odd time of year. I was sitting in the car with the seat heater on and my fall coat, but there he was... like a giant blue whale on a browning green lawn in the crisp early fall air. Good for him, I thought!

Uninspired

I'm having a bit of a problem... I have lost my belief in my book :(.. not that I can actually write it or anything.. but in the essence of it. Over the last year I have come to believe more and more that it is next to impossible to get away from things that were hardwired into your being at an early age. Yes we all have control over our own destiny to a certain extent.. but it is very hard to see our own weaknesses and quirkes... we're too close.. and they are so incrediably deeply imbeded into our psyche's that they are part of the way that we think, breath, interact, feel, make love... everything about us has a trace of our child self shining through.. like a ghost. I don't have much time to write more now.. but I have a lot of thoughts on this subject.. so I'm sure I'll get back to it.